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August 27th, 2009

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SUGARLIFE
 
blue parts
eyes so dull glazed over with saccharine
dulcet tones set to lull turning slowly thin
turning in the wind
 
pool sharks
ocean sized fist fights over bruises and bites
all teeth and knuckles all grins and chuckles
 
sugarlife
just kill me please
sugarlife
pretty disease
sugarlife
 
utopian psychotropics and cheap copics
what's left to want?
nore more allegories
no metaphors
everyone says what they mean
everything exactly how it seems
 
bright future
sugarlife wearing me down
strange creature
a rotten fetid crown
 
not making a sound not making a sound not making a

July 24th, 2009

1.Will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight?
i like a lot of people. it's entirely possible and highly likely.

2.Ever had a near death experience?
yeah, when i went under for kidney surgery when i was 13. i coulda died pretty easy, open stomach cavity and all that.

3.Where’s your cell phone?
on top of my stereo speaker

4.What is the last thing you thought about?
i really need to brush my teeth (fucking plaque!)

5.Do you regret anything?
i don't think saying you don't regret anything doesn't make it true. but i sure wish i didn't regret anything.

6.If you found out you were pregnant who would you tell?
pretty much everyone. mainly because it'd be hilarious. unless Danny DeVito was involved. then i yell something about getting to the chopper.

7.What are you going to do this weekend?
work, play that new game (BlazBlu) i got, work on a compilation for a friend, play Star Wars at the comic book shop, lotsa stuff

8.When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Today

9.Do you prefer revenge or just pure jealousy/envy?
revenge, but only if it's cold. lukewarm revenge just makes me nauseous

10.Who would you like your next “fling” to be with?
well since you're obviously not expecting a realistic response, how about Jake Gyllenhall right now 'cuz he's got long hair and a hot bod for the Prince of Persia movie

11.Would you curse in front of your parents?
yeah. not like they could do a lot about it.

12.What kind of camera do you have?
Nikon Not So Coolpix L20

13.Would you rather go to a party or out of town?
a party i suppose. going out of town is always expensive

14.Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
several people actually XD

15.When was the last time you held someone’s hand?
ACen

16.Who can you tell everything to?
anyone. i'm not hesitant to speak my mind.

17.Can you play guitar hero?
wouldn't want to, but if i had to yes

18.is any part of your body sore?
my feets.

19.missing someone right now?
pretty much constantly yeah

20.is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
shouldn't my whose standards? certainly not my own, because that's absurd.

21.When was the last time you saw the person you last kissed?
when i kissed them

22.Do you like your phone?
meh.

23.Last thing alcohol beverage?
Schlafly beverage

24.Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex?
YES V.V

25.Have any of your best friends ever back stabbed you?
dude i'm pretty sure if they did i'd know, unless they stabbed me with a toothpick or a hair or something

26.If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick?
BAD IDEA. i don't know, the person i piss off the least?

27.What’s the seventh text message in your inbox say?
my phone is dying, i'm getting my charge and coming back

28.When is your next road trip?
maybe possibly in August for GenCon? dunno if that's gonna happen really

29.What did you do this weekend?
Star Wars, Fallout 3, work, other stuff i don't remember

30.Met anyone new in the past week?
most people i meet are pretty old. i don't hang around new people, they cry and pee themselves and smell.

31.What does your bestfriends call you?
dork.

32.Who was the last person to go to the movies with you?
lotsa people. Christy, Sarah, Alex, i think were more but i don't remember, for Harry Potter

33.Are you currently fighting with someone?
does myself count?

34.Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
before Harry Potter

35.Who/What would you like to see right now?
dang. top of the list? a Venom/Deadpool movie. that'd be nice.

36.Are you mad at someone right now?
not right now at this second no

37.What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
that's the cutest text i've ever gotten about underwear :)

38.Do you mainly use your house phone or your cell phone?
my house doesn't like it when i use her phone

39.Is there an empty place in your heart?
i hope not. that'd be a pretty immediate concern, what with the interrupted bloodflow and such.

40.Do you count down the days till anything?
yeah, sadly enough.

41.Are you looking forward to something as of right now?
that's a trick question right

42.Have you ever been called a tease?
yes, justifiably so

43.What are your chances of getting with your crush?
HA! HAHA! FUCK YOU! 

44.What is the farthest you’ve traveled with a friend?
Indianapolis

45.Are any of your friends so close that you consider them family?
i don't really have what most people consider a family, so no

46.Anyone told you a secret this week?
yes. not one i cared to know, but yes

47.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
i won't say never. that's absurd. but i try not to.

48.Do you hate anyone?
hate, if you mean like a "hate crime" kinda hate... not really. but there are people i dislike. the more i get to know somebody, the harder it is to hate them, and if i don't know them very well, then it's not very fair to hate them, is it?

49.Last time you wore the opposite sex’s clothing?
well i wear a buncha band t-shirts that were prolly meant for girls, does that count?

50.What do you want in your life right now?
more time.

51.When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry?
ironically enough, it was at Star Wars a couple weeks ago.

52.Did you tell someone something today?
maybe. or maybe i just imagined today and i'm really in a coma or something. wouldn't that be WEIRD

53.Do you trust people easily?
yep. and proudly so.

54.What were you doing at 9pm Friday night?
playing the Avatar game for the Wii with Sarah.

July 2nd, 2009

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 hey daniel, check out next week's Rock Band downloadables (apparently celebrating Mayhem fest)

Behemoth "Conquer All"
Black Dahlia Murder "What a Horrible Night to Have a Curse"
Cannibal Corpse "Hammer Smashed Face"
God Forbid "Empire of the Gun"
Job for a Cowboy "Embedded"
Marilyn Manson "Disposable Teens"
Slayer "Black Magic"
Whitechapel "This Is Exile"

June 30th, 2009

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 Day two of finding my stepbrother sleeping on the couch at six in the morning.

June 29th, 2009

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 ummm yeah anyone not already following me on twitter please check me out there

from now on, i'll be using this blog to keep track of how often i come home from work to find my stepbrother sleeping on the couch

so yes, today is the first (though it has happened very often before this)

May 21st, 2009

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May 14th, 2009

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Nothing good ever happens to me without the bad showing up to ruin it.

Anime Central 2009 was fucking awesome. It was truly the best time I've ever had at a convention, ever.

But now I'm paying the price.

I've got conjuctivitis in my right eye and a fever that won't go away.

I pretty much already know that it's an STD. There's no coincidence.

Yes, I had sex at ACen.

I shouldn't have.

I haven't had sex in... at least five years. That's what I was telling myself when we did it. Somehow, that was my reasoning for being so FUCKING stupid.

I hate myself right now, in the worst way.

I always loathe people who make stupid decisions without thinking. I've always erred on the side of caution.

Now I've got to deal with this disease and it's my fault. I don't know if it's completely my fault, but even if I could blame him for not telling me, it wouldn't make me feel any less like a fucking idiot.

This is probably the worst I've ever felt about anything I've done in my entire life. I don't think I've ever felt so stupid.

You want to know what makes this all really terrible? I can't go to work. The constant watering and tearing of my eye is the best way to spread it; wiping my eye every ten seconds is going to be really noticable, and if I call and tell them why I can't come in, I don't know what I'll say.

April 16th, 2009

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 Music Updated: [STOP PUSHING BACK SHIT]

May 15th
Water & Bodies - Water & Bodies EP

May 19th
IAMX - Kingdom of Welcome Addiction
Oceansize - FRAMES
 
June 9th
Dredg - The Pariah, The Parrot, The Delusion
Somanydynamos - The Loud Wars [ free show = april 18th ]

June 15th
Enter Shikari - Common Dreads

June 19th
Poison The Well - The Tropic Rot

June 23rd
The Mars Volta - Octahedron

March 28th, 2009

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 so, time for an update.

after a month of being ran around in circles by the leasing office, we finally got a mailbox key. which means i have the Cavalry portable USB 50GB i ordered. it's sitting on top of my computer humming away.

i also got the two Poison The Well vinyls i ordered and the t-shirt of a great new band called called IN:AVIATE. but the hard drive is what i'm most excited about, because it means i can finally digitize my music library, something i've been wanting to do for a long time.

there's also a fancy service called Skydrive from Windows Live that i only just recently discovered. it's essentially free online storage, ala photobucket or a less sleazy RapidShare. they just recently upgraded their capacity to 25GB of free storage.

my plan is to offload my important files to the portable hard drive, then reinstall my copy of Windows Vista. not even because there's anything wrong with my computer - nothing of the sort. but there's a lot of excess registry data and uninstallables and the ilk. so yes, once the important stuff has been evacuated, i'll wipe it clean and start over. my only concern is that i don't have any more computer enables for my ipod, which means that if it doesn't recognize my reinstalled computer as the same one it was installed on, it won't let me use it V.V

at least, that's my theory.

i just recently found out that Alex may have to get a new camera, as his expensive, high-quality one has been damaged and may no longer be usable. we'll see. if that is the case, the situation with the ipod is up the air.

see, originally, i was going to get a DSi. actually, before that, i was going to get a digital camera, because i walk everywhere, and a lot of what i see, particularly in the mornings after i get off work, it all feels photogenic. i also wanted one to take with me to conventions and gaming events, but when i was looking up cameras, though, i realized how expensive it was to get a camera that could do both. when i heard about heard about the DSi, i decided that would be ideal; all i had was the Gameboy SP, and in addition to having a simple camera, it plays music and browses the internet... if anybody knows of a similarly priced ($170) device, let me know.

damn, have to leave for work. to be continued later.

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there's an incredibly talented artist on deviantart who sent me a note today, urgently requesting my help in find people who will pay him to draw stuff. he's dropped his rates to the most ridiculously cheap level in order to make a quick $100. he does full ink and colors. and take my word for it when i say he's VERY talented. i've commissioned him twice, that's how much i love his art (though i paid much more).

http://7th-seal.deviantart.com/ 

in other news, the new Dredg CD has been pushed back (big surprise). it's now June 9th. ironically enough, The Mars Volta has just recently sprung a surprise on their fans; a new record in June! tentatively called "Octahedron". so i guess that makes up for it. Dredg and Mars Volta in the same month. that's a good thing.

March 18th, 2009

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looking for love in a ghost town
i am dragging
the lake for
that one true thing
nothing for
me to find in the lost & found
this city
is a river
and my lover
is a body
dumped into her
maybe i'll find him some day
if her current hasn't carried him away

March 5th, 2009

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NEW FUCKING MUSIC!

APRIL 7TH
Junior Boys - "Begone Dull Care" : [Parallel Lines] [FREE Show April 25th @ Billiken Club]
Doves - "Kingdom of Rust" : [Kingdom of Rust]

APRIL 28TH
SomanydynamoS - "The Loud Wars" : [Progress from "Flashlights"] [CD Release FREE Show April 18th @ Billiken Club]

May 19TH
Dredg - "The Pariah, The Parrot, The Delusion" : [Push Away (demo)]
Oceansize - "Frames" (US Release) : [Commemorative T-Shirt]
IAMX - "Kingdom of Welcome Addiction" [Think of England]

I am so pumped! And so broke!

January 29th, 2009

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give me noxious fumes
give me crowded rooms
i want broken fixtures
i want stolen futures

i need you
like i need
another hole in the head
trepanation addiction
my fiction fiction

you cheshire cat
where oh where
are you at

January 25th, 2009

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 Wow, that post on Thursday seems REALLY annoying in retrospect.

Thank god nobody reads this thing, right?

Anyway, the recent reemergence of one of my fav bands, Glassjaw, has me reminescing back to the shining start of the new millenium, when I hadn't yet realized how passe angst was. Looking back at my CD collection, also recently unearthed and realized that 2002 was the best year ever for my music. That year the following albums were released:

"Bitterness The Star" by 36 Crazyfists
"Worship/Tribute" by GlassJAw
"What It Is To Burn" by Finch
"Wiretap Scars" by Sparta
"Terraforming" by The Postman Syndrome

As much as each of these bands have evolved after these initial releases, I savor these albums the most. It's not to say that I consider them the best music ever; that's a far more complex list. Instead, these five albums shaped me as a post-adolescent, as I graduated from high school and left behind my past. 

In the process of looking for a way to post tracks from these CDs, I've stumbled onto Opentape, which is a resurrected version of the wonderful Muxtape web service. Check it out and give it the support something like this needs.

Time for sleeping.




January 23rd, 2009

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a sequel to one of the most underrated action movies of all time! 

January 22nd, 2009

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 I keep waiting for it all to come crashing down.

I know I've got a mountain of debt that's waiting just outside my front door. It all stems from the apartment I used to live in, the expensive one that I was asked to move out of. I wish I'd had more time to prepare before making the decision to move into that apartment, to find a cheaper apartment, to find someone to move in with, but I didn't, and now I have a month's worth of unpaid utilities and a bounced rent check waiting for me as soon as I walk in the bank. I don't know the sum total of damage, but it's at least two hundred. That's not to mention the student loan payments I haven't made for the past five months. No doubt the loan has defaulted.

In addition to this, I have pressing medical pressures. My ingrown toenail is not going away any time soon, and my wisdom teeth make my jaw ache constantly. These are things I should have taken care of, but know I can't afford to pay for right now.

I don't know if I should clear things up with the bank first, or see the dentist and podiatrist first so I can tell the bank that I have medical bills to pay.

Either way, this means I'm getting a second job soon.

Fortunately, it looks like the local comic book shop is hiring, and I'm a shoe-in. I'm going up there on Saturday to talk to the owner and maybe start learning to run the place.

What this does mean is that my spare time is going to be MIA real shortly here.

I have always been very lucky. I've always gotten by with the minimum of effort. When I got to college and dawdled my first year through, my father threw a brick at my face. It still hasn't struck me. I spent the next year of my student loan dawdling also, until my transportation broke down. A second brick in the face meant I wasn't going to be handed a new set of wheels any time soon. Even then, I couldn't bring myself to find a full time job. It wasn't until the pressure at home got unbearable that I picked up the night shift and made enough money to move out. Not even really moving out, I was living off my former friend's parents' hospitality. Within the year, I'd worn out my welcome, and I was still working the same dead end job, screwing around and not doing anything important. When they told me it was time to go, I panicked and signed up for the closest apartment I could find. That made it even worse, living by myself, with no motivation and still no vehicle... at that point, I was completely self-absorbed, wasting three months doing absolutely nothing despite the fact that I clearly couldn't afford to pay rent there and ignoring the bills piling up. I was kicked out again, and things looked their worse.

I feel so sorry for Christy, having to bear the responsibility of inviting me to live there. I behaved as though her room was my own, left it a horrible mess, and pretty much buried myself in Resident Evil 4 and cable TV until the end.

Turning 24, moving into the apartment, the opening of Newcastle Comics, the whole end of 2008, it all has crystallized these experiences. Laid before me is an opportunity to live for real.

After leaving the New Year's Eve Party early, I was sitting in my room, listening to Have A Nice Life and working on Apparatus, and I finally made a connection; doing real things makes me happy. Video games, RPing, Gaia, just screwing around... I get lost in these distractions and they don't leave me feeling anything but distracted afterwards. They're addictions.

So, on New Year's Day, I wrote up a slip of paper and taped it to the side of my computer monitor. It says: "Death to Distractions".

Underneath it is the following list:

Newcastle Comics Cult Cinema Club
Apparatus
Maggotbox
Pulp Noise
Myfellowgamers
PHASE

The first three should be obvious. The third is a new project, inspired by Have a Nice Life and the Enemies List record label. The idea is to compile music, write prose set to this music, and package it with artwork. Simple but ambitious. It's a freeform project, not limited to a certain theme. The idea is to not only support the underrated, underexposed music I enjoy, but also to exercise my prose writing muscles and also to collaborate with other artists.

Myfellowgamers is a gaming website that I've become enamoured of. It's more than a novelty, and I recommend giving it a look. The driving principle of it, and the reason why I'm so focused on it, is that it uses comparison reviews between two games to create a more sophisticated ranking system than your average, numerically-based sites like Gamespot and the ilk. Despite my new vow to put video games aside, this site is something I'm already a part of and I want to see it grow.

PHASE is Newtypes. It's my cyberpunk action movie tabletop RPG. I'm going to start work on it again, because I'm tired of D&D and Vampire and Werewolf and I want something that doesn't suck to play.

So, these are my top priorities. I'm putting aside Gaia, no more commissioning, no more RPing, no more distractions.

2009 is the year distraction died.

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January 18th, 2009

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thanks to Scott @ WeAreMovieGeeks.com for the tip!

January 15th, 2009

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 also, Godwin's Law is a riot.

so is this


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 first off, Uncle Outrage: great stuff.

as some of you may be aware, about this time every year, i prepare for ACen. in years past at this time, i began searching out particularly unique cyberpunk-esque outfits to acquire and wear for the convention. i recently enlisted the aid of Merc in assembling an outfit, as i found myself dry on ideas.

she suggested the following pair of UFO pants with a matching shirt vest thing with an offer to sew on an anime-style zipper thing down the front of the vest. it's a really cool outfit but i'm worried it won't look that cool on me.

later that night, i was looking up pictures of this character from "The Good, The Bad and the Weird". I love his outfit, and while studying it, it struck me that it wouldn't be that difficult to put that one together (other than that swanky ass belt).  There's a plethora of pinstripe vests available on Ebay, this one being the cheapest. Assembling the rest of the outfit is more a question of budget and availability. I can get a swanky dress shirt here for $25, or I could just go around various non-internet stores and look for one. If I can find a cheaper dress shirt, I can grab the expensive, sexy pants from Lip Service, or if I can't find a satisfactory shirt, I can get a cheaper pair of pants from the same store that sells the dress shirt. And then, of course, there's the matter of accessorizing; gotta find a cool belt(s?), a hat(?) and a pocketwatch w/ chain. My Dr. McNinja cosplay will require dress shoes, so that kills two birds with one stone there.

What do you folks think? Should I opt for the anime-esque raver gear or the gangster-esque western outfit?
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